Survivor--->survival of the fittest...

Survivor Fiji, most lasting impression of all the seasons I've watched was the moment when Boo said "No amount of money in the world would I sell my integrity and ethics out to evil". This got me thinking and I believe that integrity and ethics of a person are very very important qualities that define someone. If I was actually on the show, seriously, I would not promise Yau-Man immunity at the final four and take his car in the first place, and if I was to do that, I would keep my word. Going through life, little promises I've made here and there, whenever I broke them, I felt uncomfortable or guilty, it would just keep playing and playing in my mind and I am just not at peace! So today, I realized I am actually a relatively ethical person and I indeed do have integrity. Yea to me!

In the business world, you are always told to be cunning, to be manipulative in order to come out as the winner, it just sounds so harsh! Does that really define success? When you are at the top of the world, would there be people around you that are happy for you and are proud of your success? I really do not think you need to be of those things in order to succeed; take me for an example...I believe I am a lucky person, it seems like I always cruise through things when they're important steps I must go through, and honestly, at times, I do feel that I have a guardian angel looking down on me.

Looking at my career, I would say I have a very smooth sailing, it doesn't mean I don't have to work hard, but I feel that I cruise by relatively well; however, I must admit I was manipulative here and there, not to hurt people or steal other people's thunders, but I would look at things from another perspective and alter the picture a little bit toward my favor, hees.

My guardian angel, yes... in University, first year Uni, I was in Arts, really wanted to get into business, so so so scared I can't cut the minimum requirement, since I am not very good in math and economics, the basic foundation of first year business, lol. I survived! Looking back, I really still don't know how I managed, but the next year, I was in the Faculty of Business, and learned about Co-op. During the 3 years in business, I never planned on doing coop, because it would put me a year behind that I already am, and I have no clue what happened, but I somehow handed in my application during the last hour of the deadline. The next thing I know, I was sitting in for the Interview of a lifetime, and then by Christmas, I was on a plane to Toronto, working as a Logistics Specialist at the #1 company in the world, General Electric.

With everything that happened in my family, I started looking at life differently, I don't want to climb the corporate ladder, the business world seems to loose its meaning to me. I don't feel inspired with profit figures or million dollars contract. Hees,there was a point where I was like, it's not like they're going into my pockets! This world has lost its appeal to me, and I wanted to do something more relaxing, more meaningful. I stumbled upon CRRS, a great non-profit organization that helps children in the rural parts of China obtain an education. I worked there very briefly, but during this period of time, I felt very inspired and actually felt like I am indeed making a difference. The day I resigned was when I decided I wanted a new surrounding, I don't feel like I could find myself in Vancouver, the city felt different to me. At a certain point, I was wondering rather it was the city or the business world that was making me feel empty and meaningless. In addition to all these feelings, I felt like the past is not letting go of me, and no matter how badly I wanted to start over, to see life differently, I felt restraint in Vancouver, I couldn't move away from the past and look into my future, so I made another life changing decision. I wanted to move to HK, I wanted to enjoy life the way I want to live it, you know, all relaxed, happy, and just doing what Bonnie wants! How the heck do you support that type of lifestyle? I mean, to be happy, I need money, I do want the best for myself and all. Yes, I have good parents, I am able to have what I have today because of them, and luckily, from an early age, I learn about the value of money; no, I would not throw away money at the most ridiculous thing, but I would definitely not live a pauper lifestyle either. Anyhoo...financially secured, I decided to get TESOL certified and move to HK to teach English for a little while, because my fire has ignited. I wanted to return to the business world with my own venture. What is the point of my business degree otherwise?

So I arrived in HK with my dirty little dog and it's a damn good thingmy guardian angel moved to HK too! The first job I applied to, I got it. So here I am, teaching English at a private institution part time and have all the time in the world to get myself involved with the stock market and the economy, and I must say, this city is as tempting and filled with opportunities as I imagined. My guardian angel smiled down on me when I met my neighbors who happened to be the directors of a firm that is involved with billion and billion dollars of contracts. We were able to bond, really bond, and through them, I was offered the position of Project Manager, effective as of July, my first step entering the business world of Asia. Why I accepted the offer? How can I not? They are promising me opportunities and networking contacts I never thougtht possible, and best of all, they respect me and value me, they are giving me the chance to be the "next" them, which I feel so so so fortunate about. OK, another good thing, my full time is working from 11-5, HOW GOOD IS THAT? Hmm...I hope I am not excited about my work hours too fast, HK is the capital of overtime after all.

I feel very blessed, I do, a lucky little girl all by herself in a congested city. Who said I couldn't do it? Through the years, I have changed, I have moulded, and through life's lessons and obstacles, I am growing up, and I learn to appreciate and value things I have taken for granted or completely ignored. I love my guardian angel, ultimately GOD, for he guides me through life, he instructs me of life's directions. I love my parents because they make me the person I am today, they make me stronger, they force me to grow up, be accountable and take responsibilities for things I never imagined. I love my sisters, one showed me what strong is, what positive thinking is, while the other one could give relatively good advice, hees, and actually could look at people and interpret them quite clearly. I thank-you many people that come and go in my life, everybody don't think they have done anything, but the kind little gesture, the acts of kindness, and some form of opinion you said made me the person I am today.

Sitting here and writing this post, I can say I am proud of who I am though I do wish I would stop procrastinating, and I feel that I have the maximum amount of support possible in life. "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."